Gratitiude

I have been brought to tears more than a few times, living the life I am living today.  It hits me at odd times, but the feeling of relief, gratitude, peace...I feel the whole mix of those and more.  I don't know if I can explain it well enough, but if you could feel my heart, you would understand.  

 Has it really been over 2 years?  The first year was first spent disconnected, then making a major life change.  That had to happen before the rest could fall into place.  

The 2nd year was spent setting up my home, becoming more independent, and realigning myself.  I wouldn't say I was fractured, because I continued to live, learn and grow, but I'm still sweeping up and discarding of the tiny scraps that show up from time to time.  That's getting much easier.  I can't say I've completely forgiven, but that will come, eventually.  

Now, 3 months into the 3rd year, I am happy to say that my independent spirit has been revived.  My home is wonderful, my pets are great, and I am getting my budget squared away.  

Starting up a new household takes moola and time.  I have plenty of time, and limited moola, but I'm making it work.  

I am blooming where I have been planted, and thriving.

But...

As much as I hate to admit, I am feeling a little lonely.  

I don't have anyone to do anything with.  I would like to make a friend of the male persuasion to do things with.  I don't want to sit here every day all day all summer, again.  I want to go to Estate Sales and Thrift Stores and Garage Sales.  Maybe even start up a You Tube channel.  Be a reseller.  

I have so much love in me.  After being in a loveless relationship for 20 years, and being the age that I am, I would sure like to share that love with someone cool for the rest of my life.  

Someone big and strong, funny, loving and caring.  Someone that will make it easy for me to give up my clubhouse.  

Someone that would love me back.  

Someday.  Hopefully someday soon.  

Until then, I am going to continue to learn and grow, love my life, and be grateful for all of it.  Every single bit.  

Play Nice! 
xxoo

Location, Location, Location

 2024!  Woo Hoo!  I am open to all positive aspects that a come with a new year.

I haven't updated in awhile because of where I had my computer set up.  It was set up on a piece of furniture called a Secretary, in a corner, with a small space between the desk and the wall, because I needed just a little elbow room...it was that small.

Greg and Brad thought I would enjoy it if they both played in the small space between the wall and the desk, where all the cords were jangled.  Every time.  They did not think this was the best place in the world to play, unless I was sitting at the desk. 

They were wrong, I did not enjoy it.  At all.  So I pushed the desk up against the wall, and that was that.  

Yesterday I moved my monitor, keyboard and mouse to a table closer to where I could actually get to it, the wires are hidden, and while they have been trying to entertain me while I "work," there aren't any crannys or wires for the little bitches to get snarled up in.  

Yes, I called them the b-word.  

Brad is the age that Greg was when he came to live here.  He's growing like crazy, a sleek black panther.  He's so chill most of the time and he's one of those cats that go limp when picked up and purrs all the time.  

Greg is Greg.  He's bossy, picky, and demanding.  He will grace me with a snuggle and purr a couple times a day.   

They're best buds now.

I started getting up at 6:30 am right before the time change.  I was sleeping until 8, but I really enjoy getting up early, getting things done so I can have the day to create. It's 9:53 am right now and I've already done my morning chores, and here I am. 

 I was treated to this sunrise one morning I just happened to open my front door.  No filter, and you can only imagine how it looked for real.  

This was my Christmas tree this year.  That's Brad with the jingle bell collar I made for Karma Carmella way back when, I took the tree down the next day because I believe Brad took a nibble off the tree...he was sick a couple times that morning, and besides, I had a feeling there was something about that tree anyway. 

 

I'd love to have the Christmas Tree that me and the kids always used, but it's being held hostage in the storage room in the home of a very bitter man.  Maybe someday, but it's not worth facing the devil in my world to get it back.  

Does this bring back any memories?  I love opening the cannister and seeing this.  I guess you could say this sparks joy for me.  

I've been dabbling in reselling some items.  Mostly on Mercari and FB Marketplace.  Mostly household items, and I sold this statue that I had given as a gift to same bitter man.  He sent this back instead of my rhino, but again, maybe someday...but this statue I sold for cheap because I didn't want to see it every time I walked up to "my" porch.  

 

It may sound silly to some, but if you know you know, and you'll get it.  

So, probably more blogging coming, probably...I have lots of thoughts and my keyboard is right here.  

My Home Sweet Home

I only use SnapChat for the filters,

and chatting with my niece..  

Play Nice!  xxoo