Now what?

 My life changed on December 1st, 2021.  It has taken me exactly this long to wonder what's next.  So much time homeless, then finally finding a place to live, moving in with just what I could carry.  Little by little me and the boys have made this a sweet little clubhouse, with lots of love.  

I am happier than I have ever been.  I love where I live, I love my life.  But that doesn't mean that it has to just be "this."  As much as I love it, there's so much more out there that I want to do.

I am ready for a new adventure.

This girl (me) lived a loveless life for 20 years.  No hugs, no kisses, no physical contact unless fornicating, and then only with the lights out.  I always kept my eyes shut.  

I am a very physical person.  I love a good hug,  I love to hold hands.  I love to reach out and just touch someone that I love, and I've had to squelch that part of me for for too long.  Not that I am wanting to go out and have a bunch of sex, that's not my objective.  

I am looking for someone to laugh with, to talk to.  To Be with.  Someone that I can be myself with, because I am finally finding me under all the layers of squelch, and I am pretty cool, imo.

Because I have to love myself like crazy before anyone else can, I am making some healthy changes in my life, and actually have an overdue appt at the dentist this afternoon.  

Random thoughts I know, but still memorable.

xxoo Play Nice!

My friend, Earlene

 She passed away last night.  She was 78.  She and I had just celebrated our 13th friendaversary.  I went to get her and took her to work just last week.  She was awfully frail, and I was concerned about her going but she was determined.  As usual.  

Earlene and her husband and kids run a very successful appliance store in town.  A very well respected company.  She had almost a dozen exotic birds at one time.  Now I think there are only 5.  Some have passed, some recently rehomed.  I worry about Rosie, she and Earlene had been together for 30 years.  

I am sorry that we don't have any pics together.  We just didn't do that.  

We truly loved each other.  And while my life was going through changes, I knew that at any time I could reach out and she'd be right there.  And it went both ways.  

It's so sad to know that she's "gone."  I will miss her until I see her again.  

If you feel like you need to tell someone that you love them, dammit, go ahead and do it.  

Play Nice  xxoo